Confession.

I found this today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully, it's a good sign.

    
I got bored last week and wrote my first RE a letter.  In the letter I outlined why I never came back to his office for any further treatment.  I doubt I will ever hear anything out of him but at least he knows that I think he is incompetent.   I feel better. I also left a negative review for his clinic.  I owe that to others. 
            I now need to call my other RE's office and switch to another RE in his office.  I'm so pissed at my second RE.  I was applying for the Thrive study and was told everything was great, they were just waiting on my embryo quality from my RE.  Lo and behold, I caught him in another lie.   He said our embryos were wonderful he couldn't understand why we weren't pregnant.  As it turns out, for IVF#2 the two embryos were graded fair and poor.  I hate being lied to.  I'm really nervous.
           I've been keeping myself busy doing crafts. I sound like I'm at summer  camp.  I just need something to keep me preoccupied or else I find myself really depressed.  I made a burlap wreath.  I started out doing it one way and then changed my mind half way through. I love how it turned out. 

Research Study.

So far we have qualified for an IVF research study.  The study is for women who have had three consecutive failed IVFs.  It's not really an accomplishment but I have to work with it.  The nurse called on Friday and said so far it's a go.  Everything is free.  I'm so excited. Then the catch.  I thought the clinic was in Chicago, nope it's in Maryland.  The clinic that's in Chicago that is doing the study is very uncooperative.  Almost rude.  The clinic in Maryland returns my e-mails and calls promptly.  It's a ten hour drive or I can fly.
I'm torn.  I don't know how I will pull of a cycle in Maryland.  I'm in wait and see mode right now.