I'm hot and I'm cold..

All that I can think of is I'm hot and cold. You know the Katy Perry song. One minute I'm ecstatic, the next I'm numb.  I think I try to keep my hopes from getting up so that it doesn't hurt so bad if it doesn't work.
I think I've want to the end of Google researching things about frozen embryo transfers with five day blastocysts. I've Googled frozen embryo transfer after chemical pregnancy .Frozen embryo transfer after failed fresh. When can I pee on a stick after frozen embryos transfer.  You name it, I've Googled it.  But in my mind I know that every case is different and no one can determine our outcome.
 I will have my transfer in a little more than 48 hours.  SQUWeeeeeee!!!!   I'm to the point I'm just ready to get it done and over with.  I know that I can take a test next Monday and maybe get two lines .  I have taken all my medication and have not missed any.  I've been drinking water.   I think were ready.  I think that this is the best chance we've had so far.

 Meanwhile, darling husband (OH YEAH,  I had to spell that out) is on a hunting trip .  He has been gone since Friday and will not be home until the morning of transfer.  I have been left to care for his police dog.  I love this dog but he is a total jerk when my husband's not around.  tonight I gave myself some sanity and gave him 50 mg of Benadryl( don't worry I cleared it with the vet ) .  He has finally stopped pacing for the first time in three days and is sleeping.   Poor boy.   To top things off, we got a huge storm today and there is destruction everywhere.  I had to hide in the basement with the police dog and by dog.   The police dog thought this would be the appropriate time to poop on the floor.   He did it on the concrete by the furnace but it was still gross to cleanup.   He's lucky I love him.

 I announced to DH that I am going on vacation next..... By myself.